My alarm sounds and the bitterness inside me begins to swell again as I wake. Another morning of press speculation. What does the future hold now for the disgraced Scotland U21's Manager? Sure, I still have my job at Rangers, a position most boys would kill for growing up in a small Ayrshire town, but being involved at international level always gave me a sense of pride. I'd had a falling out with the first team manager, Walter Smith. A hero of mine as a boy, i reflect now on storming out of the office leaving him and Gordon Smith behind, my resignation letter left sitting on the dark mahogany desk in the SFA headquarters with a sense of regret. The argument centered around him calling up the older lads in my squad for his team: team captain Danny wilson; and top goalscorers John Fleck and Leigh Griffiths among others. This coupled with a few of my players going past the U21 age limit had left me with a shadow of the team that had left me undefeated in the U21 World Cup Qualifying campaign. I was obviously delighted for the boys to get a call up, but they were just warming the subs bench and their time could have been much better spent gaining valuable internation level experience at U21 level - some of the boys called up had never even played outside of the SPL. My position had been left untenable.
I sit at the breakfast bar watching the morning reports on Sky Sports News with a cup of coffee in my hand. My form at Rangers has been a bit poor as of late, as if the players can sense that i've become a bit disilusioned with football. I wondered if this would be the leading story.
"Good Morning, This is Sky Sports News. Here are today's top stories..."
The sense of dread churned in my stomach. What will they report about me today? That I'm getting the sack at Rangers? That I'm sleeping about on my Mrs?
"...And now onto to the Scotland setup..."
Here it comes.
"...Where former Scotland U21 boss Derek Healey has been linked as a surprise candidate to the vacant post as international manager after the much anticipated retirement of Rangers legend Walter Smith. Stories have been circling in the press as to Smith's successor after his resignation last night with Paul Lambert being touted as the bookies favourite this morning, but our sources have revealed that Walter Smith has spoken directly to Gordon Smith and recommended the fiery Rangers Manager as having the passion to take the squad forward in the World Cup Qualifying campaign. We'll have updates as they happen, but one thing remains certain: there will be plenty of debate as to whether or not Healey would be able to juggle the pressures of club and country. It looks like we could be in line to find out..."
My cup hovered a few inches from my mouth, where it had been throughout the duration of the report. Me? Walter recommended me?! I tried to tell myself to remain calm, it's just press speculation but just then my mobile begins to vibrate across the table. I hesitate and then answer it with a mixture of trepadation, fear and pure adrenaline.
"Hello?"
"Hello Derek, Gordon Smith here. Have you got a moment?"
... 8-|
I sit at the breakfast bar watching the morning reports on Sky Sports News with a cup of coffee in my hand. My form at Rangers has been a bit poor as of late, as if the players can sense that i've become a bit disilusioned with football. I wondered if this would be the leading story.
"Good Morning, This is Sky Sports News. Here are today's top stories..."
The sense of dread churned in my stomach. What will they report about me today? That I'm getting the sack at Rangers? That I'm sleeping about on my Mrs?
"...And now onto to the Scotland setup..."
Here it comes.
"...Where former Scotland U21 boss Derek Healey has been linked as a surprise candidate to the vacant post as international manager after the much anticipated retirement of Rangers legend Walter Smith. Stories have been circling in the press as to Smith's successor after his resignation last night with Paul Lambert being touted as the bookies favourite this morning, but our sources have revealed that Walter Smith has spoken directly to Gordon Smith and recommended the fiery Rangers Manager as having the passion to take the squad forward in the World Cup Qualifying campaign. We'll have updates as they happen, but one thing remains certain: there will be plenty of debate as to whether or not Healey would be able to juggle the pressures of club and country. It looks like we could be in line to find out..."
My cup hovered a few inches from my mouth, where it had been throughout the duration of the report. Me? Walter recommended me?! I tried to tell myself to remain calm, it's just press speculation but just then my mobile begins to vibrate across the table. I hesitate and then answer it with a mixture of trepadation, fear and pure adrenaline.
"Hello?"
"Hello Derek, Gordon Smith here. Have you got a moment?"
... 8-|
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