1st December 2013
I am sitting in my apartment in North London that I rented about 2 weeks ago. Scanning the computer for a job. Kiddiminster,Birmingham,Sheff u and Ebbsfleet all rejected me. I feel so rubbish. I feel like the walls are closing in on me and I don't know why. I just feel like my world has been shut down. My life is lonely and rubbish without football. My wife left me. A man I never knew. I really hate this and I need to escape from it.