was gonna say great story... but lilly allen! tut tut tut
haha yeah I know.
I literally just hit shuffle on my ipod and whatever comes on I use. Lily allen is only on there because of my girlfriend. I dont like it, but i didnt want to waste time going through my ipod finding something else. The past one i pick a song from the top ten of that date.
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Chapter 32
Tuesday 26th December 2007
Boxing Day is suppose to be a stress free day, when you recover from the boredom of Christmas day, sitting there and eating too much turkey, watching a lot of pointless TV. My Christmas day had been full of stress and preparation, my boxing day had been full of stress and disappointment.
I walked out of White Hart Lane, the most disappointed man in England. Not only had I spent Christmas day on my own in my flat in West London, looking through papers and planning how we could beat Tottenham to bring a little bit of Christmas joy to the Fulham fans that were having to endure a relegation fuelled battle at the bottom of the Premier League.
Unfortunately for us, I had considered that Tottenham were pushing for Europe and would want to end the year on a high. They tore the team I was temporarily in charge of us, apart beating us 5-1. My head was suddenly filled with self doubt. Only my second game in charge as a Football Manager and we’d been beaten by our London rivals 5-1. Was I really cut out to be a football manager? Only time would tell. I really didn’t have anytime to prepare for our next game, I had only three days before I would lead the team I had inherited to Birmingham to face Birmingham City in what was now considered a six pointer in the relegation battle.
Saturday 29th 2007
Birmingham City Vs. Fulham
We arrived at St Andrews, the team, the fans and myself no confidence in my ability to lead the team, after only three games. But before this game I was told to that the club had found a permanent manager to take over the team I loved and was learning my coaching trade at. I hadn’t been told who he was, but the announcement would happen after the game.
I had delivered what could be my last team talk in charge of Fulham, and the team lined up to face Birmingham. I walked out on to the pitch, and looked around, up into the stands as Muhammad Al-Fayed took his seat, to my surprise he was joined by Roy Hodgson. Instantly I knew Mr Hodgson was the new Fulham boss. My thoughts turned to the game, but all the time I feared for my job, not as the manager but generally feared for my job at Fulham on the coaching staff. Hodgson would surely bring in his own team of people.
We got off to a brilliant start, Carlos Bocanegra flicking the ball off his head beautifully into the net giving us the lead after just eight minutes. Healy and Dempsey all going close before half time. The second half was much the same, with Healy going close a few times before Birmingham got there break through, Larsson’s ball rebounding off Omozusi’s right knee and into the net. Simon Davies should have given us the lead again, but we couldn’t make a break through and my final game as care-taker manager of Fulham ended in a 1-1 draw. I walked out onto the pitch, the rain getting heavy as I shook hands with all my players and applauded the fans that had made the trip to Birmingham.
It didn’t take long for me to be replace, the press office releasing a statement half an hour after the game, I was now officially a foot note in Fulham’s managerial history. Despite the two draws and the lose at Tottenham, I was still being linked with jobs at Norwich, Leicester and Hartlepool. I wasn’t ready to be a Premier League manager, but maybe the lower leagues is where I should have started? Maybe I needed to step back and learn my trade.
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Chapter 33
Saturday 23rd April 2011
Roma Vs. AC Milan.
I woke up that morning, Sarah next to me in my flat over looking Rome. It was a busy day, not only did we host AC Milan in a game that would now decide if I was going to become a legend in Rome or not, but after the game despite the result I would be once again boarding plane to get back to England for my Mother’s funeral.
I still wanted to be in England, much of my body and mind not caring about the football, but I was also a football manager, and whatever happens in life I had to be focused on my job. I packed my suit and headed to our ground, a few fans already arriving, the team slowly arriving as well. It was then that I received the news that would rock Roma fans. Francesco Totti had just announced to the Italian press that the game at home to Livorno would be his last as a professional footballer, retiring at the end of the season.
Around half an hour before kick off, my body still filled with grief, I was walking down the tunnel to over see the final warm up, and my body was taken back by nerves, remembering what had happened at the San Siro earlier in the season.
My nerves however were quelled within the first five minutes of the game, as Pizzini crashed a header into the net, sending the Roma fans into raptures and me jumping around the dugout. Milan broke on the counter attack, just two minutes later and Pato slotted the ball home, 1-1 after only seven minutes. But the action wasn’t finished by a long way. Just three minutes later, Owen’s shot cannoned back off the post, Milan once again broke on the counter. Pato’s shot looked certain to go in, until Doni’s out stretched arm got a finger to it. The following corner came in and was met by Silva’s head. Milan led 2-1 after only ten minutes of the biggest game of my career to date. Te game settled for just five minutes, when Owen broke through the defence only to be brought down by Silva, who was booked. Baptista stepped up to take the free kick and like a bullet it flew inot the top corner. 2-2, once again our fans jumping around in the stands. Twenty nine minutes and Pato pounced on his own saved shot to slot it home past Doni and Mexes on the line. But the ref disallowed it, Pato adjudged to have handled the ball. I just wanted half time, time to settle my team, and duly the ref granted my wish with the score 2-2.
It took just seven minutes of the second half for my team to take control of the game, Pizzini and Owen combining well with some quick passing, leaving Pizzini bearing down on goal and cool placing his shot past Abbiati in the Milan goal. The crowd erupted as we once again took the lead. On the hour we extended our lead, Mexes making perfect connection with Baptista’s corner. 4-2! But the two goal lead didnt last long, as Huntelaar struck for Milan making it 4-3, the game may have been turning into a thriller but we needed the win, so I took off Vucinic and Owen bringing on Van Der Vaart and Totti. With just seven minute of the Ninety remaining the substitutes combined, Van Der Vaart putting Totti through on goal, he looked set to score, until he unselfishly pulled the ball back across goal to Pizzini who put the ball into the open net to complete his hattrick. 5-3. Two minutes later Totti was once again through, until Silva came crashing through him and received him second yellow card of the game. With Silva sent off, Totti grabbed the ball and placed it on the spot. He coolly slotted the ball past the Milan keeper to give us our sixth goal of the game.
Our 6-3 win over Milan meant we had climbed into third above them, still seven points behind Fiorentina after their 5-0 win over Torino which sent the Turin team down with Ascoli to Serie B. But the second the full time whistle went I was rushing to try and get away from the stadium and to the airport. I sent my assistant to the press conference and had a brief team talk with my team. But I didn’t have time to celebrate the way I should and wanted to, instead I was getting into my car with Sarah and heading to the airport.
Drinking in the morning sun,Blinking in the morning sun, Shaking off the heavy one
Heavy like a loaded gun!
What made me behave that way? Using words I never say! I can only think it must be love!
Oh, anyway, it’s looking like a beautiful day!
Someone tell me how I feel, It’s silly wrong but vivid right. Oh, kiss me like the final meal
Yeah, kiss me like we die tonight.
Cause holy cow, I love your eyes! And only now I see the light! Yeah, lying with me half-awake! Oh, anyway, it’s looking like a beautiful day.
As the sun beamed down over Rome and Elbow played on my iPod, we arrived at the airport and were on our way to England for what seemed to be the hundredth time that month.
As we touched down in England, exhausted and stressed, I finally made the decision that would effect my life and career. No matter what happened in the league, if we finished third or first, Francesco Totti’s last professional game as a footballer against Livorno in three weeks time would also be my last game in charge of Roma. I would not extend my contract which the chairman had offered me twenty four hours previously. I loved being in Roma, but I belonged in England. I belonged back in at the home of football.
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Chapter 34
Sunday 1st May 2011
Roma Vs. Napoli
We went into the game against Napoli knowing we were relying on Udinese and Lazio to beat Inter and Fiorentina respectively if we were going to have any chance of winning the league. Personally I went into the game with a weight seemingly lifted from my shoulders, having buried my mother the previous week. The funeral was hard, me and my brother Neil both breaking down at the grave side. I had stayed in England until the Saturday before the game, but at the risk of sounding selfish I was glad I could finally concentrate on the football side of my life going into the final three games of the season.
I had discussed with my boss that I wouldn’t be extending my contract, and after the season and travel I had experienced over the season, she had reluctantly agreed to let me go after the Livorno game. The decision was hard for me, I truly loved Rome and my head wanted to stay there, but my heart was in England. After experiencing going toe to toe with the likes of Ferguson, Wenger, Benitez and Mancini with Fulham, nothing could compare to it. The F.A Cup, the Premier League. Boxing Day fixtures, Half time pies, Manchester, Merseyside and North London derby’s, are all what make England the best country for football in the world. True Italy had the passion and the Milan derby but nothing compares to facing the possibility of having to face a minnow in the FA cup. It’s hard to explain but I had the feeling that any English Football manager who had managed abroad felt the same.
With Darren Gibson picking up an injury against Milan, Pizzaro started for us in the center of midfield. The game was no where near as exciting as the battle we had, had with Milan. Our only chance of the first twenty minutes going to Michael Owen, who broke through the Napoli defence only to see his shot saved by their keeper. Twenty five minutes in and Baptista’s shot just went past the post, and in thirtieth minute Pizzini’s header going straight into De Sanctis’ hands. It took us until the fourty second minute when Pizzini connected perfectly with Taddei’s cross, volleying the ball home to give us a 1-0 lead.
At half time, I was informed that Fiorentina had scored in the forty fifth minute to lead 1-0 against Lazio, and Inter were still 0-0 against Udinese. Meaning despite being 1-0 up, we were still seven points behind, mathematically unable to win the league. As the second half kicked off, I was praying for a Lazio goal.
It took just five minutes for news to filter through from both Florence and Milan, Fiorentina were down to ten men and Milan were a goal down against Udinese. Napoli were starting to get a grip on the game, and in the sixtieth minute hit the post, we went staright up the other end and Owen’s shot went narrowly wide. Baptista’s shot went narrowly wide, as news reached me from Florence, that there had been another goal. Fiorentina had just gone two up against Lazio, despite being down to ten men. Mine and the teams title dream was slipping away. Owen struck the post and Totti hit the bar, but the game finished 1-0.
I waited on the field until the Fiorentina game finished, they did win 2-0 and we were officially out of the title race as were Inter now thanks to their 1-0 loss at Udinese. The only team that could catch Fiorentina was now Juventus having played a game less than all of us due to their European exploits. The fact of the matter was I had failed in my attempts to win the league, the cup and in Europe. And suddenly my head was full of self doubt again. Was it because of me? Where did it all go wrong?