Today's the day...
My biggest day of my management career so far has arrived, i have played in Cup finals, but i have never been this nervous, it's a match of rivalry that goes back from nearly 100 years ago, my grandad and my great grandad died fighting for this country against these, and im willing to do the same...
We touched down at the Schönefeld Airport, on the southern border of Berlin. And outside there was hundred's of camera's watching us while we were getting onto our bus for the trip to Offenbach, it felt like the whole of England was sitting on my shoulders, in the first leg of at the Stadium:MK we drew 2-2, The Germans have an advantage of an away goal, we really need to pull our fingers out today! And plus, i need to make my family proud.
When we got to the hotel, later in the evening canceled the light training session and told the boy's to relax, it had been a hard journey. I went straight to my hotel room, pulled out my notebook and pen and tried to work out how i was going to appoach this game, i couldn't think, no matter how hard i tried i was too nervous, i need to calm down.
"Hello, room service yeah i need the best alcohol you have in this place, anything will do. Send it to room 154, thanks"
Alcohol solves every problem with me, you see. When i was younger, my father used to come in from the pub every night nearly and beat up me and my mother. I wish i could of done something back then to help my mother, i was too young. Then my father died when i was not much older, it was a relief for me and my mother, but the scarring will never go away, physically or mentally...
As i watched my players warm up, it was time to name my squad. I was still torn beetween a few options so i just picked them straight from my head, right...
Smithies, Addison, Bertrand, Tomkins, Walker, Welbeck, Rodwell, Delph, Cork, Sturridge and Walcott.
The time had come, the team talk.. I walked into the changers and looked round they all looked a nervous as me, i had to give them something, from the heart...
"Right boys, all im going to say is think of world war;s, all the lives lost we have all most likely had a family member who was in that war and were either wounded of killed, i want each and every one of you's to make them proud to be English once again, i want you's to go out there and not just make you or me or them proud, make yourself proud"
RINGGGGGGGG!!
The bell went for the players to line up down the tunnel, the weight on my shoulder's just got heavier...